Coming full circle
The deliberate journey continues for me in so many ways. Even though the book has been out for over two years, I love what the Lord continues to show me through this adventure. Not only that, the people I've met through deliberate (and through its predecessor, the Narrow Gate Nuggets) are priceless to me. I know many of the relationships I've formed over the recent years will last a lifetime.
I also know that, shortly after I self-published the book, I learned firsthand that being a professional blogger, Facebook/Instagram poster, or book marketer was not part of my fabric. Not even close. Sure, I gave it a shot. I actually enjoyed doing some Facebook videos. And I was proud of myself for learning some new skills. But not gonna lie: the self-inflicted pressure of doing those things started zapping the life and joy right out of me. I just don't like the hustle. And even though my heart was (and still is) pure in my intent, it still felt like the hustle.
It was crazy for me to have so much anxiety about writing. I didn't struggle when I wrote the Narrow Gate Nuggets for so many years. And I didn't struggle with the content for deliberate. All of that flowed.
But after the book was done, I found myself in this strange position of having nothing more to say about it. It was almost as if everything I wanted to say about the deliberate message had already been said in the book. Needless to say, when you're a writer by trade, it's unusual to be completely without words. But I paid attention to that. And I have prayed through it earnestly for the past two years.
All that said, I feel like I've come full circle. It's a new decade. Ten years ago I stepped one foot out of the corporate world to pursue a more formal type of ministry. This year, I am putting that foot back in...and my heart's desire is to return full-on into the business world. I enjoy business. And now, more than ever, I know that God hard-wired me for the marketplace. That's where I want to serve Him...with all my heart, and all my soul.
I'm not entirely sure what this new chapter looks like. But there's one thing I do know: God will work it out. I will do my part, and I will trust him to do his.
I know that deliberate has positively impacted many of you, because you've told me so. For that, I'm humbly grateful. So I'm leaving the web site and Facebook page intact, for now, because...well...I do have a book out there and I want to be a good steward of it.
Thank you for being on the journey. Whether it's been a day or a decade, I hope you have been blessed...and I hope you know that you are loved.